I Love Jez

It's so crazy how much love I can feel for one person. I'd forgive anything, I'd love forever, and I'd love big and strong

I love you because

You're eyes

You buy me chocolate

You're snuggly

Your sometimes do the dishes

You smile when I pick you weed/flower

You sometimes sweep the floor

You sometimes do the washing
All without asking 

You let me complain to you

You make me happy

You let me take my time - our relationship 

You're not intimidated by my past

You want to marry me one day

You like country music

You said you wanted to kiss me

You don't pressure me

Ben

You don't get grumpy at a messy house


Your kisses

You hold my hand when we walk. Sometimes

You've made me a better person

You kiss be goodbye every morning 

You're ball slap. 

You brought me ice cream

You love me back

You buy me little things when I say I dont want anything

I Just love you is pretty much all i want to say. Im sure as time goes on there will be more reasons to why I love you, But for now, All these little things add up to the big picture, :)

Feeling invisible

I have retarded parents.
I have a mother who is still with the man who sexually abused me for years and a father who needs to be reminded when my birthday actually is.

Sometimes, most of the time I am fine with it I can cope. But lately I see all these wonderful families and wish I could of had that when I was growing up. I know a lot of people don't have the perfect families and perfect lives but I think we can all hope for it.

I look forward  to being the best parent I can parent be and raising an amazingly beautiful family!

The best?

We are all selfish. We all want the best we can be. We all strive to be the best. We all want it. We all deserve. I think the problem is when we  start to think that we deserve it more than the next person.  We are all equals. We are all humans. When did life become such a "well I am better than you so I deserve it it" in an ideal, fair and equal society, should it be they're not quite there yet, how about we help them so there can be. That way there is more people who are "there". Where ever that "there" is.

We all talk about how we want to be fair, but cut people from our teams, our lives, or jobs,  just because they're not as good as us. Thats  not being fair. Thats not really helping any issue at all. What issue is that solution solving? None.
Unfortunately  I know we'll  probably never be like this, but feel for the little people.

Why are we not able to, as a society help out the little people, the people not as good as enough,  are we afraid that they'll then be better than us, they'll take our jobs, they'll take our spot on the team, they'll be higher on the social hierarchy  (oh no how devastating). What would be so wring with that anyway, why can't we just feel happy,  content, that we have helped someone grow.

They'll most likely pay it forward and help the next person along, which is great for our society.
We need to stop being afraid of not being the best i think. Be the best person you can be. And if that's not the best in your town, in your job, in your team in what ever you need it to be, you'll still know that you'll be the best person that you can be.

Another thing, if you are the best, would it really hurt if you did happen to let someone else have a go??

I think I will leave you all with that final thought..

Have a great moment.  Xx