Jeremy (heart)

I fell for you

quickly and hard

even though I told myself not to

I couldn't help it

you make me feel so many things

but happy is always my favorite

even though you are so far away

you still make me smile everyday

you always smell nice

and treat me like a princess

except without the spoilt brat bit

things are easy with you jez

I don't feel like i have to prove myself

be someone im not just to please you

cos you like me for me

and I love that you do

I lost someone who was trying to mold me, 

and I was sick of it so i decided i'd be myself, 

I lost him, and got someone better: YOU!!

Thanks the higher power!! 

you never tell me im wrong just because i do things different

Thank you!!

Also you don't care when i have moments where all i wanna do it talk about myself.

well if you do, you don't complain about it.

Thank you!!

I miss you. I love you. 

Just Me

Hey Heys.

Its Sunday the 7th of April and I am a tad bored. So, thought I would just say hey.

Havent been doing much at all, except stressing over uni assignments i leave to the last minute!! Im silly like that, :P But,, I have finished now, and was able to have a stress free weekend!! Yay!! So i was able watch The OC all weekend. Yay. And text my boyfriend all weekend. I miss him, :( And i cant with to see him again. He was meant to come up this weekend, but didn't, he had to work, :( and i was sad, but still a little disappointed. But its okay, I know he is still there :))
Have a week of uni, Then i get two weeks off, Yay, Might go spend it with that big boofa of a boyfriend of mine :)) and my daddy :)) Love em both :)) <3

Anyways, I am off to cook dinner, Chicken Parmi and Mash!! Nom Nom Nom.

Ciao Guys :))

Mama's Arms

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PfpZL1HjtvQ

Going back to a tender age,

So full of confusion and rage,

Daddy says, "Boys, your Mama's gone."

There's a hand on your shoulder as you're throwing dirt,

Someone says, "Time heals the hurt.

Little man, you got to keep on keepin' on,"

But all you want is Mama's arms.

You ride back home in a limousine,

The saddest car that you've ever seen,

Your brother can not look you in the eye.

Lightning strikes, thunder roars,

An early winter in that heart of yours,

But you swear you won't let them see you cry

'cause all you want is Mama's arms.

The neighbors come and bring you pies,

Endless words and futile sighs,

And you run up to your room and lock the door.

And there you are in your Sunday best,

The way your Mama would have had you dressed

And you realize it doesn't matter anymore

'cause all you want is Mama's arms.

'Round and 'round and 'round it goes.

The seasons change the young boy grows

To understand it's all part of some plan.

You used to wonder what it's all about.

Now those are questions you can do without.

You laugh them off and do the best you can

But all you want is Mama's arms.

All you want is Mama's arms.

Ronan Keating  - Mama's Arms

This isn't the first that i have heard this song, But its the first time it has made me feel like this.. I despise my mother, i really do, But that doesn't stop me from wanting to be loved like a mother should love a daughter, It doesn't stop me from wanting Mama's arms.... 
That was all i wanted was to feel a mothers love, for once in my life, and not when it was to late, not when you had destroyed every tiny ounce of hope i had that i would ever get it. You may say that you did, but fuck me, you have a funny way of showing it if you did... Just saying.. Staying with they guy who sexually abused your daughter for 8 years, is not showing your daughter love... But hey, If you think it is, you have no place in my life, I am done, hoping that one day we will have a relationship, because in my opinion, its taking to long for you to try, Stay with him for a long as you like, I am done caring!!