Whats been happening

Well still not much happening. Spending a little time with my cousin and his family, Getting lots of cuddles from the baby. <3 I love baby cuddles. Can wait until I have my crew, :P

Whenever I come to daddys,  I always end up putting on the Kilos, lol. So fair I have put on 7, :P I should probably stop eating 3 blocks of chocolate a week. That and maybe go for a walk or jog. Lol.

It has been so cold though. And even when the sun is shining the wind is freezing. I miss Summer. L

Today I did some washing, And there was a silly tissue in the wash. I was not happy. But I laughed anyways.

I had a crazy dream last night. I was walking down the main street if Merredin, and then I seen my mother, and we started having a screaming match, yelling all sorts of stuff at each other. Then I moved in with some friends I haven’t seen in a few years, which was a little awkward. That was about it, But it was still a pretty weird dream. Dreaming about my mother is always so annoying, Makes me a little angry.

I have given up thinking/caring about her. She can do whatever she wants. She isn’t worth my thoughts.

Since I left perth to spend time with my Dad, all I have heard from my friends in Perth is, you should comeback, your living like a cave man, when you coming back to civilisation, Its like sorry I want to spend time with my Dad. Its like I know I complain about the phone reception and the weather out here, but its alight heartedly, I love being out here.

But with saying that, I do miss being in the city with all my friends, and having stuff to do.

It just makes my blogs boring when I am out here, lol.  Not been doing much at all. Gotta love Midday movies and Days of Our Lives.

Am so excited to go to Bali with my Lil Sister. <3 Gotta love her. Well actually I don’t gotta love her, I choose to cos she is just so amazing and she makes it easy. Lol. She even promised not to leave me at the airport like Jasmine did. Truly the best sister I have ever had.

Well I think that is about all that has been happening,

I shall go and get the washing off the line before the rain hits again.

Speak Kind Words Xx

Jess

Update from Daddy's

Hey again all, it’s been a while. Sorry. But I have been mega busy and I have just gotten a chance to sit down and breathe.

So I finished all my exams J Hopefully I passed both of them. I am actually pretty confident. So that’s good. Now just waiting for results and to see if I got into my next course, Social Science.

The afternoon I finished my exam, my dad texted me and told me he was coming to pick me up. I hadn’t packed, and my room was a mess, and a group of us were chilling/celebrating our last exam.  Gosh I love my friends.

So I told dad to give me a few extra hours and then I went home and frantically packed and cleaned my room, only to be just ready in time J

Since i have been here, i have done some gardening in the back yard, it now looks like a yard and not like a paddock. Hehe. But I have plans more plans for it. Lets hope Daddy doesn’t mind. :P

Gotten back into Days of Our Lives, almost finished my book, done a new scrapbook page for my scrapbook, done a little bit of cleaning, But not as much as I had to do the last time I was here. I havnt gotten a chance to use my new mop bucket yet. L It has been freezing cold at night, but relatively warm during the day, so I have been soaking up the sunshine. But I am still wearing 2 jumpers, thermal stockings and leggings. By the time I get used to this weather, It will be time to head back to the city.

Although I am glad I got out of the city to begin with, coming out to the country lets me appreciate the city, and all that it offers. But I love being able to be in both, because the city lets me appreciate the country.

I have been here for a little over a week, the first 7 days I was here, I only seen Daddy for 5 of them. He works to hard, 17 hour days. I should take him on a holiday.

We went to the pub last night and played a few games of pool. I lost all of the ones I played against daddy. Then we played doubles with Craig and Chris, We won a few of those games. I even sunk the winning black ball in one game. Which is good because I am like the worst pool player. :P

Did some star gazing last night, It is honestly so beautiful out here, I miss being able to see the stars, The city sucks in that department! I must find somewhere that has good stars in the City.

Anyways, I must be off. Dinner Time. Roast. Yummy. Lets hope daddy didn't burn it. Hehe. I doubt you will ever read this, but i love you Daddy <3 J


Speak Kind Words Xx

Jess

Sometimes A girl just needs her Daddy.

Didnt know where/who to turn to tonight, So why not the world wide web.

1 exam down, 1 more to go. Then Off to spend time with my Daddy. Whom I love very very much. He brought me a new mop bucket!!! : ) Like I said True Love.

This is me and my Dad a few months back.

You may have noticed in the picture, I havnt much hair on my head, This is why...

I had the original notion in my head, that shaving my head would be fun and I actually like being bald, So I told my Best friend at the time, Jasmine, That Iwas going to shave my hair, She started asking me all these questions asking why, then I started to think deeper about why i wanted to shave my hair, and I honestly dont know why but I came to the conclusion I didnt want to be me, But really, I just wanted to be happy and I knew that shaving my head would achieve that, Anyway, we had a huge argument over it, And didn't speak for probably 2 maybe 3 weeks, Which is hard when you live with each other. Anyways, This is me with know hair.... Drum Roll

Pretty Sexy if I dont say so myself. :)

Anyways lets get back to today


So much has been happening and I have know idea where to start. I dont like it very much when life gets like this, At least its only once a month these days, And only last a few days. I just wish I knew my triggers...

This thing with David, is proving to be more complicated than I thought it would be. Stupid me for thinking I could have a relationship I guess, I am the one who messes things up constantly. But it is always with the truth, So I'm not seeing how this works. Truth, for me,always caused more harm than good it seems.

Dilemma, Speak the truth, and cause pain to mostly myself, or Dont speak the Truth and cause pain to all those who are involved... Actually I think in this particular situation I may have hurt David by speaking the truth to late it seems, But it took me so long to work things out in my head.

So tonight, with all my pent up frustration over this situation, anger at myself for being so stupid, worry about the future, and a certain loved ones health, I decided to go for a jog. It turns out my jog was more of a 3km sprint. This was soooooooo stupid, I havnt run in about 11 months, I am still recovering from an Achilles injury and I am in so much pain. I guess this pain is better than other self inflicted pains. I am dreading waking up tomorrow though, it is going to be worse, But Now that I have started running, I must continue, I might just take it a little slower next time.

I wish for two super powers, 1, to see into the future and 2, to be able to read minds. Now both of these would have their disadvantages but sometimes the disadvantages become the advantages.


But today wasnt all bad, After our exam this morning,  A group of us all went into the city, And i brought a new Hat, I think it is pretty Amazing and So me!!

Here Comes Trouble

What do you all reckon hey? Cool or what??

I have decided that I am going to share with you tonight a poem that I have written,
This Poem is Called This Little Girl I wrote it early 2011.

This Little Girl

A little girl sad and alone

Cold and stiff like a stone

Tears run down her pretty little face

She can’t stand the feeling of his terrifying embrace

She knows what is about to come

And sadly nothing can be done

She knows it hurts, she knows its scary

She closes her eyes and pretends she is a fairy

She did this for a full 8 years

Hiding from everyone the pain, the tears

See, this man got away with what he did

He changed the life of this poor innocent kid

She relives it everyday in her mind

Trying to struggle free from his bind

This little girl, not so little anymore

Still lives through the memories, so there, so raw

What this man did hurts like a knife

He may as well have taken her life

From time to time she will see his face

At a park, at school or just any place

She get a chill to the bone

She thinks and wonders, will he follow me home

Once you have been violated in such way

You can’t help but to think, he will get me one day

Know matter what happens, he could be dead

Those years of your life are forever in your head

There is something in this you don’t see

The little girl in this story, She’s me

Anyways, Mega Tiredness here, I am off to Sleep. I will try and post once more before i head to the country to see my Daddy, As we get very limited reception our there. 

Thanks for staying with me guys. Much Love

Speak Kind Words Xx

Jessica

Questions

Got a Little bit on at the moment, So I have decided to let you all get to know me more, Here are A lot of questions I have answered. :)

My Answers as of the Tenth day of June 2012

What is your hair colour? Really Blonde, But i have some serious regrowth happening. 

What is your eye colour? A greeny blue 

What is your height? About 173.5 cm

What is your profession? I am a Student

What is your relationship status? Ha, Umm, Complicated I guess

What are your religious views? Are you serious, Umm, That I guess is also complicated.  I Believe there is a God, As for the rest of it, I am still learning. 

What is your zodiac sign? Aquarius 

What is your birth date? The Eighteenth Day of February 

What is your shoe size? Depends on the brand, Anywhere between a 8 1/2 to 10

What is your biggest fear? Losing all the ones I love.  

What is your biggest mistake? Hmm, Mistakes, Thinking that I was Okay. 

What is your proudest accomplishment? So far it would be graduating High School because there was a time I though I would never get there. 

What is your #1 priority in life? Making other people in my Life happy.

What is your dream job? A job where I can make people happy, One that would still allow me time to spend with my future family, One that will allow me to better myself and learn things everyday. 

What causes do you believe in? I guess I believe in a lot of different causes, From The right to feel safe, loved, and cared for. I believe in Gay rights, Animal rights, Human Rights, Indigenous Rights, I believe everyone deserves the right to life.

What famous person do you want to meet?  Barrack Obama, George Clooney, Ellen Degeneres and maybe Elvis 

What place do you want to visit before you die? Ireland, and USA

What song do you want to be played at your funeral? Who You'd Be Today - Kenny Chesney 

What are you listening to right now? Take Me Away - Lifehouse

What makes you happy? Friends and Star Jumps

What did you do yesterday? I tried to study for my exam tomorrow, but was unsuccessful, Then I decided I would do 100 Star Jumps, Then a friend asked if i wanted to hang out, So I went into the city and we chilled for a bit, Then I came home, cooked dinner, Ate dinner, watched some TV, talk to a few people on facebook, Then went to bed.

What is the last dream you remember? I had two last night, The first one was, I was heavily pregnant, And I was trying to work out who the baby daddy was, But I couldn't because apparently I fell pregnant in August, but I didn't have sex in August. RANDOM, and the other one was, Shanae and I had a fight and we were not talking, Then we were at the dinner table and we both looked at each other and we lost it laughing. 

What was your last place of employment? I have never been employed. 

What colour are your socks?  I am not wearing Socks

What side of the bed do you sleep on? The Middle

What were you doing at midnight last night? Just hopping into bed

What is the one thing you cannot wait for? My Family

What are you listening to now? Just A Dream - Carrie Underwood

What is the one thing you want to change about your life? If I were to change anything, I wouldn't be me, So I don't really want to change anything.

What is something new you want to try? Body Painting

What is the longest relationship you have been in? I would say about 2ish years

What was your first surgery? I had my Adenoids out when I was in Year 5 

What do you do in your spare time? Facebook, Read, Blog, Listen to Music, Write Poetry.

What kind of clothing do you like? I like a lot of different clothing, What ever feels comfortable on is good though, However I do like to dress up every now and then,

Do you have an Innie or outtie? Innie (for those that dont know, I am talking about your Belly Button)

Do you have any Siblings? Four Brothers 

Do you have any pets? Nope

Do you have any children? Not Yet

Do you smoke? Nope

Do you drink alcohol? Rarely

Do you exercise? Umm, Sometimes

Do you love your job?I dont Have one

Do you like to cook? I do

Do you sing? I do, Just not well

Do you dress up for Halloween?  Not really

Do you dance?Yes, Just not well haha

Do you speak different languages? A little bit of Italian that I learnt in High School

Do you ice skate? I do. 

Do you swim? When the weather is nice :P

Do you have any special talents? Nope, Not really

Do you paint? Cant say I do

Do you write? I do

Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow? I have know idea

Do you wish you were famous? No really

Do you ski? Nope

Do you juggle? No I do not

Do you wish you lived somewhere else? I do

Do you like rollercoaste’s? Some of them

Do you enjoy spending time with your mother? Not really

Do you sleep with the fan on? In the Summer

Do you know how to play chess? I can sort of remember. 

Do you miss being a little kid? I do

Do you want to get married? I do. (See what I did there) 

Do you like the rain? Yup. 

Are you a righty or lefty? Righty

Are you a good driver? I cant drive

Are you double jointed? Nope

Are you outgoing or introverted? I am both

Are you taller that 5’4”? I am

Are you a bully? I hope not

Are you mad at someone? Not really

Are you neat or sloppy? Both

Are you in love? Do we really know what love is???

Favourite Colour: Purple

Favourite Fruit: Watermelon

Favourite Car: I am kinda liking Toyota Prado but Holden Cruze is still top of my list!!

Favourite Movie: Of all time, Hmm, Raise Your Voice

Favourite Hobby: Blogging

Favourite song/Singer: HardQuestion, But Favourite Singer At the moment is Jason Aldean, Favourite song is Hanging By A Moment - Life House

Favourite Book/Author: 19 Minutes or Sing You Home Both By Jodi Picoult

Favourite School Subject:  English

Favourite Holiday Story: The Road with No Road

Favourite Food: Hmm, Pasta

Favourite Restaurant: Fast Eddies

Favourite Animal: Butterflies

Favourite Store: Kmart

Favourite Celeb: George Clooney 

Favourite Childhood Friend: Sophie Jordan

Favourite Childhood Memory: Playing Flytrap with Soph

Favourite Baby Name: Girl: Sophie-Jean Grace, Boy: Austin Or Charlie

Favourite Person in your life: Shanae

Favourite possession: My Laptop or My Teddy Collection

Favourite Shop: Kmart

Favourite Fast Food Restaurant: Hmm, Subway

Favourite Comedian:  Carl Barron

Favourite Holiday: Im not a fan of the holidays

Favourite Number: Seven

Favourite Hard Candy: Chuppa Chupp

Favourite Month: November

Favourite Flower: I have 3 I cant Choose from: Tulip, Frangipani and White Roses

Favourite Ice cream: Vanilla

Favourite Smell: Eucalyptus or Vanilla

Favourite Drink: Water

Favourite Cartoon Character: Bubbles for the PowerPuff Girls

Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla

Big Mac or Whooper: Big Mac

Coke or Pepsi: Coke

Beer or Wine: Beer

Coffee or Tea: Tea

Apple Juice or O.J: Apple Juice

Facebook or MySpace: Facebook

Summer or Winter:  Summer

Windows or Mac: Windows

Cats or Dogs: Dogs

Boxers or Briefs: Briefs

Rain or Shine: Rain

Chips or Popcorn: Chips

Salty or Sweet: Salty

Home and Away or Neighbours: Home and Away

Plane or Boat: Plane

Morning or Night: Night

Movie or Play: Movie

Walk or Drive:Walk

Money or Love: Love

Breakfast or Dinner: Dinner

Forgiveness or Revenge: Forgiveness
Paint or Wallpaper: Wallpaper

House or Apartment: House

Truth or Dare: Truth

Contacts or Glasses: Glasses

Skiing or Boarding: Boarding

Silver or Gold: Silver

Diamond or Pearl: Diamond

Sunset or Sunrise: Sunset

Phone or In Person: Person

Apple Pie or Apple Crumble: Crumble

Harry Potter or Lord of The Rings: Crumble

Bath or Shower: Bath

Have you written poetry? Yes I have

Have you dated someone older than you, how much? Yes, 5 years

Have you ever stolen anything? No...

Have you ever been drunk before noon? Nope

Have you ever had sex in a public place? Nooooooo!

Have you got caught telling a lie? Nope

Have you got a speeding ticket? Noo

Have you been arrested? Noo

Have you littered? No

Have you cheated on a test? Yes

Have you cheated in a relationship? No

Have you failed a class? Yes

Have you screened your phone calls? Yes

Have you stuck gum under the desk? No

Have you wished you were someone else? Yes

Have you cried during a movie? Yes

Have you had a one night stand? No

Have you ever laughed until you cried? Yes

Have you found out who your real friends are? Yes

Have you met someone who has changed you? Yes

Have you had to pull over to vomit? Yes

Have you had your heart broken? Yes

Have you had a good feeling about something? Yes

Have you had a near death experience? Yes

Have you swam in freezing water? Yes

Have you jumped of a roof of a house? Yes

Have you been attacked? Yes

Have you bungee jumped? No

Have you white water rafted? No

Have you pulled an all nighter? Yes

Have you surfed? No

Have you lied about your age? No

Have you broken a bone? Yes

Have you ever done something illegal? No

Have you won any awards? Yes

Have you ever had a conversation with a person named Tom? Yes

Have you ever written a song? Yes, haha. 

First piercing: Ears at 6 months old

First best friend? Sophie

First sport you joined? Netball

First pet? Sumo the dog

First vacation: I cant Remember

First concert: Adam Brand

First crush: Stacey

First memory: Riding my pink and purple Tricylce up to Mrs Hockleys

First person you had a fight with: Brothers

First time you road a bike? Christmas awhile ago

First car? Dont have one yet

First person you slow danced with: Corey

If your house was on fire, what is the first thing you would grab? The people

First movie you saw? As if I remember

First time you were afraid? I cant remember this also

First song you remember listening to: Rose Garden - Lynn Anderson

First thing you would do with 5 million dollars: Buy a house.

First thing you notice when you look in the mirror: My Nose

First impression of your partner: I don't have a partner

As of now your ex and you: Are friends

As of now am listening to: Love The Way You Lie - Rhianna and Eminem 

As of now I should: Be studying

As of now I love: Yoghurt

As of now my best friend: Are texting each other

As of now I don’t understand: A lot I guess

As of now I have lost respect for:  Liars

As of now I will always be: Me

As of now love is: Complicated

As of now I get annoyed when: People Dont reply to important messages

As of now I wish:  Everyone Happiness

Where are you right now? Sitting at my desk

Where would you rather be?Jogging

Where will you be 12 hours from now?  Sleeping

Where were you born? In a Hospital

Where is your best friend? Umm, Working

Where did you grow up? In the country

Where do you want to travel to? Ireland

Where do your grandparents live? All around WA

Where is your mum? I dont know

Where did you meet your best friend? At Boarding School

Where is your dream wedding?  Im not sure yet

Where do you keep your socks? In My wardrobe 

When was the last time you showered? About 3 hours ago

When was the last time you saw your father? About a month ago

When was the last time you cried?  Last night

When did you last see your best friend? So So So long ago

When do you want to get married? When I find the Right Partner

When was the last time you went to a circus? A really long time ago

Do you have any medical problems? I do

Do you like to read, what? Everything

Do you cook?I do

Do you like poetry? Yup

Do you get mad easily? Nope

Do you like to get hyper? Sometimes

Do you like making kids laugh? Yep

Do you want children? I sure Do

Do you play a sport? Not at the moment

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward? Not At All

Is it easy for ppl to make you smile? It is

Is your life complicated or simple? Its complicatedly simple

Would you do drugs? Not Illegal Ones

Would you get married before 19? Nope. To late now anyway

Can you make yourself cry? That I can not

Can you crack your neck? I can

Can you type fast? Yes, But it may not make sense. Haha

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?  7

Describe yourself in one word: Me

Do ppl think you’re weird? YES

Are any of your friends mad at you? I'm Not really sure, I hope not

Who is your best friend? Shanae

Does anyone hate you for no reason? I am sure they think they have a reason

So Thats more about me... There is a lot going on in my life at the moment, So I dont really have time or energy to post whats actually been happening. I Have Exams this weeks, So I have been trying to study, But there has been a fair bit going on in my personal life, which i will tell you all about once I actually know what is going on.

But for Now,

Speak Kind Words Xx

Jessica Xx

Some of My Favourite Quotes

So, This particular post is on my other Blog, but I know some of you don't read my other blog. So I thought I will post it on here also. There may or may not be another post later tonight, Right now I'm in the middle of an identity crisis and exams in the following week. STRESSFULLLL!!! I will get through it!! Anyway Enjoy my favourite quotes. :)

“Who you are speaks so loudly 

I can't hear what you're saying.”

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

WOW!!!!

 This quote speaks volumes and I feel it deep within me....

I heard this the other day on a DVD i was watching. It really reminded me that we can teach out children so many things through our words but we need to be so much more cognitives about what we teach our children through our actions. 

So many times we all have ideas about who we want to be. I can talk all about the person i would like to be. But at the end of the day i can only hope that my actions have represented that person! Especially when our children are at stake!!

"If you work just for money, you'll never make it, but if you love what you're doing and you always put the customer first, success
will be yours."



Ray Kroc

To be considered a success you dont have to make the most money. When it comes to being happy, Money is NOT the most importnat thing. First you should live what you are doing and take a positive look into committing yourself to the people who need you and the people you work with. This positive outlook will determine your new found success!

"It is not what we get. But who we become, what we contribute... that gives meaning to our lives."
-Anthony Robbins

True Happiness and Self Satisfaction are not measured by the material possession you have received or brought. It is rather, the way you influence others and how you develop from your accomplishments, Which makes your life significant! <3

My Personal Favourite Is:

"If you see a turtle on a fence post, it had help getting up there"

- Little Jimmy Dickens

If you think that you made to to the top all on your own. You ARE mistaken. And you are clearly forgetting all of the people in your life who have influences and inspired you!!

From the time you were born, there were people shaping your life, weather they be your parents, brothers, sisters, friends.... anyone you have come into contact in your lifetime.

If there have been some experiences in your life that have been bad, did you turn the around into something positive or did you let it set the course for the rest of your life?

I am proud to say that i constantly rely on other people to help shape my future. I am always learning from others everywhere i go. If you listen really carefully, there is a lesson to be learnt. 

We all know that the turtle did not make it to the top of the fence post on its own. And we all know that Bill Gates didn't get where he is no by his own either. 

When i get to my fence post, i know i have a lot of experiences to thank, both good and bad!

Speak Kind Words Xx























Jessica 

What Makes Me Happy

Hey Again Everyone,

Today I was thinking of times I  have been truly happy. I would like to share some of these days with you.

My Year 12 Ball

Me Just Before The Ball

My Hair <3 

My Amazing Date - He is an Amazing Friend!!

 The ball was such a good night because I got to spend it with many of my High School friends. I also felt like a Princess that night! I truly loved my hair style, Although when i got home at about 1am taking 158 pins out of it was not so fun. My Ball Date Jordan, He is such an amazing friend and person, even to this day. Jordan will have an amazing life even if he doesn't know it yet! My very close friend Penny meant a lot to me that night. With some Non Desirables on our table I had to keep her calm and she was a great laugh! I am sure the Year 12 Ball was a great night for all who were there. It was A night when all the diversity of the High School groups came together for an amazing night.

A very close friend who I almost lost because I was Silly

 Tasmania Trip

The View of Hobart From Mt.Wellington

Me Hugging Penguin in the town of Penguin 

 I went to Tasmania with my older brothers David's dad whom I was living with at the time. We went over for Christmas and to see his Mum and Dad. We had an amazing time, Doing all of the Touristy things. I really enjoyed Port Arthur. Which was the main Prison in Tasmania. Tasmania has a reputation of being cold. However, when we went it was rather warm. The warmest they had in 5 years! And I missed out seeing snow. But I have seen snow before so I didnt mid to much.

Port Arthur has Amazing history

Tassie Devils Cutest/Ugliest things I have ever seen. 

Trip to Shark Bay

A very Nice Beach  :) 

Dolphins

On an Easter break, Bill, Shanae and I made our long drive up to Shark Bay. With me getting car sick within the half an hour, it wasn't looking good, But, Once I had some breakfast and something to drink, I was feeling okay and we were on our away again. : ) We did lots of Four Wheel driving this trip. It was Very Fun. And More photos of the car Arial. (inside joke) The Dolphins were pretty amazing, Although they weren't smooth like most people think that they are. They are actually quiet rough. Bill got to feed the Dolphin, he was pretty stoked. :) We also found some natural hot water springs which was pretty warm. There was plenty of sunshine so, so many chances at swimming.  Also, one of the days we were coming back from a trip of driving, we came into town and there were wild Emu's running around the main street. It was a sight to see.

Someones really badly tanned feet 

These are only a few of the time I have been truly happy. There are many more!!

But the reason I was thinking of the days I have been truly happy is because, these last few days I have been truly happy and I cant remember a time when I have been this happy for this many consecutive days.  :)

I happen to like being this happy, Fingers crossed it will last!

I wish you all The best of days

Speak Kind Words Xx

Jessica X