Mama's Arms

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PfpZL1HjtvQ

Going back to a tender age,

So full of confusion and rage,

Daddy says, "Boys, your Mama's gone."

There's a hand on your shoulder as you're throwing dirt,

Someone says, "Time heals the hurt.

Little man, you got to keep on keepin' on,"

But all you want is Mama's arms.

You ride back home in a limousine,

The saddest car that you've ever seen,

Your brother can not look you in the eye.

Lightning strikes, thunder roars,

An early winter in that heart of yours,

But you swear you won't let them see you cry

'cause all you want is Mama's arms.

The neighbors come and bring you pies,

Endless words and futile sighs,

And you run up to your room and lock the door.

And there you are in your Sunday best,

The way your Mama would have had you dressed

And you realize it doesn't matter anymore

'cause all you want is Mama's arms.

'Round and 'round and 'round it goes.

The seasons change the young boy grows

To understand it's all part of some plan.

You used to wonder what it's all about.

Now those are questions you can do without.

You laugh them off and do the best you can

But all you want is Mama's arms.

All you want is Mama's arms.

Ronan Keating  - Mama's Arms

This isn't the first that i have heard this song, But its the first time it has made me feel like this.. I despise my mother, i really do, But that doesn't stop me from wanting to be loved like a mother should love a daughter, It doesn't stop me from wanting Mama's arms.... 
That was all i wanted was to feel a mothers love, for once in my life, and not when it was to late, not when you had destroyed every tiny ounce of hope i had that i would ever get it. You may say that you did, but fuck me, you have a funny way of showing it if you did... Just saying.. Staying with they guy who sexually abused your daughter for 8 years, is not showing your daughter love... But hey, If you think it is, you have no place in my life, I am done, hoping that one day we will have a relationship, because in my opinion, its taking to long for you to try, Stay with him for a long as you like, I am done caring!!