Needed to write this somewhere!!

So I just posted a facebook status saying:
"everybody always gave you what you wanted, never had to work it was always there" (Which are actually Simple Plan lyrics)
But my little brother commented saying:
"Not even. We had the same mum remember"

I feel like replying saying, No Robert, You had a mum that loved and cared for you and was always there in your time of need, the mum I remember neglected me in my time of need and just left me to fight my own battles when I wasn't strong enough!"

But its not him I am really angry at, And I don't really want to upset him. None of what happened to me is his fault, just because his father is a pig, doesn't mean that I have to take it out on him.


So I decided to say it anyway, Just because I know it will get back to her.
My mother doesnt realise how much she messed me up. And I am so lucky that I got through every thing, and I thank God and the people who helped me everyday because now I am on a path I never thought that I would be on1 And i am grateful and thankful for everything I have in this life especially my friends!

So i just got a reply from Robbie:
"Mums dropped me like a pile of shit jess. Dads the only one that truly cares about me"

Im not sure what to say, because i have know idea what he knows and what he doesnt know. I mean His Dad was the one who sexually abused me for 8 years, what am I meant to say... I dont want to upset him. I mean, i have only recently started talking to all the brothers again, I dont really wanna lose them again,....

So i ended up saying,
I am sure she loves you!
And I am sure that she loves me too, but there is no way that i can love her again
and he replies with, she may, but iv said she can jump in a hole a dig her own grave... I lost it laughing, My bad.

Anyways. I should probably get some sleep.

I shall leave you all to it!!

Speak Kind Words Xx

Jess!!

PS. I realised i was talking about the ppl I thank and i am grateful for. I would like to just give a should out to my Best Friend and My Sister Shanae because she has been with me through this whole journey, even when she wasnt. I <3 you Squido!!