Hey guys,
Ive had so much shit happening lately, I mean it hasnt all been bad, but the bad if just more at large latelt.Its kinda hard to explain it all, but I do have a poem that might explain a bit.
Ruinous memories you left me
to keep for life
left frozen under your ferociously moving hands
working their way to to your own profanes
heedless of my silenced, wrenched filled screams.
heedless of my days thereafter
your lips, they moved where they desired
your tongue, like ice cold fire
scars from the burns, obtained from your disgrace
shall remain with me to my end
this damned life you've given me
I am suppressed inside
jolted, trembling in haste filled hatred
I escaped your touch, yet here I sit
still suppressed within
here with nothing but the murderous scream of silence
no one hurt but me
listening to the scream of silence
left naked, stripped, violated and empty
still voided, lewd and bare
So yeah,
Hopefully I work this shit out soon, I am thinking about goign back to counselling, but there was i reason i left in the first place, talking about this, it kills me, i cant do it, it so hard.
But i know i have to, Not just more my sake, But for Leith, and the people around me, and for the future people i will know, but most importantly (other than me) is our future children.
Im going to leave it there,
Sorry about not being in touch so often, I'll try and be back and let you know whats happening.
xx
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