Back in the Big Smoke, And My Heart Feels Broke

Hey to you all again!!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=22zB6Soc2Gk&feature=related  > A Little Bit Stronger - Sara Evans


So I heard a saying the other day,
 "Never give up on someone you cant go a day without thinking about"


Upon hearing this saying, I couldn't help but think, about the person I think about everyday, which I guess would be fine, if he also thought about me. And its stupid, because every time I think about David and I together as a couple, I just know it wouldn't work, I mean, I cant be who he really wants/needs me to be. I am just waiting for it to get easier, and like the song suggests, Waiting for me to get a little bit stronger. Man I wish it would hurry up!!!


Anyways, On another note, I am back in Perth, Waiting to start uni. Yays! Although I am really missing being out in Benny, I almost cried myself to sleep last night, I was feeling so home sick. I went shopping today and spent way to much money!! But that's okay. I let myself I needed cheering up. :) 


I brought a new book and I cant wait to start reading it!!

Keeping Faith by Jodi Picoult 

  

I also brought a knitted cardigan in mint green, a new bra (although I hate bra shopping, but I needed a new bra and had to. It was so expensive to. I hate being a bigger size!!) and some new stuff for the kitchen such as new cups and 2 new chopping knives. And some chocolate. Hehe, I couldn't not buy chocolate. Lol

What else has been going on.... A new poem....

This was one I wrote after Matty passed and I wasn't in a good place. 

In Love

We said our goodbyes

We didn’t know it was forever

You were gone in a flash

What was I meant to do?

I was in love with you

I fell apart when you left

I felt lost and forgotten

I miss you so much

What was I meant to do?

I was in love with you

We met by the old oak tree

That’s where we fell in love

We said it was forever

What was I meant to do?

I was in love with you

Sitting on the rock on the farm

Best time of my life

The gorgeous sky

What was I meant to do?

I was in love with you

I kept all the love letter we wrote

All those kind words you said

Gosh, I miss you so much

What was I meant to do?

I was in love with you

I need you here with you

I cant believe your actually gone

I want to be with you

What was I meant to do?

I was in love you

I cant live without you

I need you by my side

I want your hugs

What was I meant to do?

I was in love with you

I would die to be with you

So that’s what I’m doing

I will soon be close

What was I meant to do?

I was in love with you

Laying in the bath

I can’t take it anymore

I sunk under the water

What was I meant to do

I was in love with you

I’m out of that life now

I can be with you

Were together forever now

I did what I meant to do

Because I will always love you.

♥ I miss Yooh. Always in My heart and never not. 

Its strange, thinking about David and I and I cant help but think what could have been. But i should stop thinking all this, He is with someone else, and I just have to live with it and move on, and stop living in the past and bring myself to the present and live that!! HA, I can only try 

I am really going to miss my friend Jack Daniels while I am in Perth.  We were just starting to get along really well and then I had to come back to Perth. Who knows, I might visit him while I am Perth.

I love the night Dad and I went tadpole hunting at midnight. It was so fun. :) A memory to hold onto forever I think!!

There a few good memories I am going to keep from this trip to daddies. ♥ Love him to the moon and back! I truly do!! But I wish he would saying he is going to die before he is 50. That is only in 10 years time!! And I don't want him to to die!! But I do however want him to stop drinking so much and smoking so much so he will live longer!!!! 

And on that note, I am off to have some dinner and watch some tellie!! I gotta start getting up at 6:45am. I mean, I happen to like getting up at 11. Oh wells, its better than 6, Hahah.

<3 all you guys

Speak Kind Words Xx

Jess